New Yorkers are often characterized as being neurotic. After living in this city for the past year, I can see why and am worried that I am becoming the same.
I never feel enough of anything in New York City - pretty enough, smart enough, rich enough, etc. I am continually battling feelings of inadequacy and it's starting to make me crazy.
I'm forgetting myself.
Gone is the girl who used to be so social. I feel completely unmotivated to pursue any of the things I used to love. I've become lazy and feel restless.
Sometimes I feel I have become someone I don't recognize and I miss the me I used to be.
New York has a trip-hammer vitality which drives you insane with restlessness if you have no inner stabilizer.
7 years ago