Tuesday, December 8, 2009

New Yorkers are often characterized as being neurotic. After living in this city for the past year, I can see why and am worried that I am becoming the same.

I never feel enough of anything in New York City - pretty enough, smart enough, rich enough, etc. I am continually battling feelings of inadequacy and it's starting to make me crazy.

I'm forgetting myself.

Gone is the girl who used to be so social. I feel completely unmotivated to pursue any of the things I used to love. I've become lazy and feel restless.

Sometimes I feel I have become someone I don't recognize and I miss the me I used to be.

New York has a trip-hammer vitality which drives you insane with restlessness if you have no inner stabilizer.

Henry Miller

1 comment:

m2 said...

This is well put. Growing up in this area, I have always felt this way. I find that its easy to get caught up and distracted. The key is to just focus on yourself and stop comparing.

Don't worry- the you that you are missing is still in there. Different people and places bring out different parts of our personality, but we are who we are deep down. I happen to think you are pretty cool!